Life 'n Monopoly

Of course, I have to shop for a car while there's piles of snow everywhere, tempatures around 0 (zero!), and bitter cold winds blowing right through me!! :( Yes, I know, I know, Jessica, be thankful you are still able to walk, and that you can still feel when it's cold, and yadda yadda yadda. I'm just saying.....I'm not exactly test driving convertabiles with the tops down!! (ooohhhhhh, which sounds really cool right about now!)

So it's only been what, 3 days of looking, and I'm exhausted. I did not know there were so many car lots around the area. We even passed quite a few up! Dad and I took turns jumping out of the truck to read the labels. Not that anyone really cares to read this, but here are some of my findings.

Toyotas seem to live forever, and still look farely decent. Since this is not a secret, the price of them does not go down very much. Much like Chryslers, they hold there value. So those two makes of cars are pretty much out for me b/c since they hold their value, I can't find an inexpensive one, that will still be worth something in 1-3 years when I'm ready to sell.

Then there's the hunt for the mid-size SUV. I was looking into those, mainly b/c they sit up. Well, we go from the Kia Sportage, which can be found at a low cost, but you'll pay later with high repair bills, to the Ford Expedition,....which is much too big for wee lil' me! Then there's full size large vehicles which are pretty much out, b/c I'm not comfortable driving them. When my dad mentioned a Hummer, I said I'd have to take out a loan just to fill the gas tank! ;) ha ha

We saw 2 cars yesterday when we were out looking, that may turn into a possible purchase. One is an '04 Ford Escape. 4 doors, I think 60,000 miles, and they're asking 10 or 11 for it. (Between, Model years, mileage, and prices I have a million numbers running through my head!) Then there was an '06 Chevy HHR, which I'd never really heard of. It only has 30,000 miles on it, but the asking price is 12. It's more like a wagon of sorts, and it doesn't sit up high, but when I looked on the inside I could so see myself driving it.

Ok, my dilemma. Everynight before I fall asleep, or every waking moment when there's a pause in daily happenings, I have so much running through my head. For instance, like what I said to my mom this morning.

I have two options: Buy a dirt cheap car, put the extra money into a savings account, and worry about dependability and possibly get stuck with high maintenance bills, or I can get a huge loan that will take me 3 to 5 years to pay off (which I don't really want to do). This is so much like monopoloy .... except it's real life and I can't just pass GO a few times, and then everything works out!

Then I wonder if my decision is going to be the one the Lord wants me to make. What if he wants me to buy the dirt cheap one, just to see if I'll trust him, and then he'll give me the desires of my heart. Or if I buy the dirt cheap one, and He'll say why didn't you trust me to pay off your loan, you're my child I want you to feel safe. See, .... it's reasons like this that people end up in the looney bin to begin with. THEY START HEARING VOICES!! Unfortunately, the only voice I hear is my own, and it 'aint makin' much sense!

Now you're up to date on my most current thoughts.

Adele, you were right on the money when you said sometimes it's just good to vent. I think that's all I was doing in my last post. Last week was a down in the mouth week, but after Wed. things were starting to look cheerier. ;) I hate to think what I'd be like if I didn't have the care and concern of church friends, and having the Lord by my side. I'd be a basket case!

I'm just praying the Lord will lock every door that I am not suppose to open, so I know for sure the car I purchase is the one He wants me to have.