It's official. My car has been towed away to the land of broken cars! :( I was on the phone for a VERY long time this morning with my new claim adjuster and he informed me that the auto shop had already talked to him and the damage was too much to repair. :( I cried when my agent told me that on the phone. I know it's silly, but I just couldn't help it. I hate feeling this way. I just haven't been myself. I feel like my mouth has just been in a frowning position for the majority of the last few days. I don't know what's going to get me out of this. My head is just spinning. This is NOT how I wanted to shop for my next car. I didn't want to be in a position where I needed something so I'd just drop a down payment on the first thing that came along that looked decent! And that is just where I am. I don't want to say I'm depressed but call it depressed, discouraged, or any other synonym of that work, and that's just what I am. I'm sick to my stomach. I guess it's not so scarry if you're not the only one going through this, and granted I have my dad, but it's not the same. I have the WHOLE burden. I hate this sooooo much! These are the only times I hate being single....in every since of the word. Every other day I can deal with it in an o.k. way, but when things go wrong, that bad feeling surfaces all over again. I don't even have a close friend that can go looking at cars with me, or anything. When I say I'm single....I mean it! I have nothing....natta....ziltch....zero....If you're depressed just reading that, think of how I feel!I have friends, don't get me wrong. It's just, .......... well, ....... I guess it's not something I can write out in words, so I shouldn't even try.
I'm still puzzled that my airbag didn't deploy.
It looks like my car was crying!
I've never seen so much of the inside guts of my car before.Of course, that's b/c they never dangled on the OUTSIDE until now!
One Last look
I'm not questioning God, but it doesn't make trusting Him for the un-known any easier. (I'm almost afraid to pray for strength b/c I'm afraid what else might happen to me!)
I'm still puzzled that my airbag didn't deploy.
It looks like my car was crying!
I've never seen so much of the inside guts of my car before.
One Last look
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I'm so sorry! Jason got hit once and the insurance company totaled the car. The only problem was that it was an old car (thought still in decent shape and reliable) so we didn't get much for it. I hope you got (or get) a fair price that will help you find something new.
I remember feeling the same way you do. I didn't want to just buy something b/c we needed something. Thankfully the Lord did help us find a used car quickly and it has been a good, reliable car. We still have it and it is now 13 yrs. old!
It is hard to initially trust God when bad or hard things happen. I know that from experience, especially in the last year. My life and for the past 6 1/2 yrs., our lives, have been all but smooth. At the same time I can look back on all of the incidents and see how the Lord brought me (when single) or us through them.
Life is often frustrating. We wonder why we are experiencing something - is it sin? is it Satan? is it God trying to teach us something? is it a temptation? We might not even know for sure. No matter why something enters our life, we can look to James 1 or the fruits of the Spirit for what needs to be built in our life during these times.
I know you don't expect (or even want) anyone to "fix" this for you - if you're like me, you're just a woman who needs to vent every once in a while w/o anyone wanting to put a bandaid on the problem! :) But I hope what I wrote helps a little bit.
Hang in there! God and you make a mighty team together. With Him, ALL things are possible!
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